A life long battle of dying to oneself everday.
“I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.”
“Provided the thing is in itself right, the more one likes it and the less one has to “try to be good,” the better. A perfect man would never act from sense of duty; he’d always want the right thing more than the wrong one. Duty is only a substitute for love (of God and of other people), like a crutch, which is a substitute for a leg. Most of us need the crutch at times; but of course it’s idiotic to use the crutch when our own legs (our own loves, tastes, habits, etc.) can do the journey on their own!”
"Indifference to the pursuit of joy in God would be indifference to the glory of God, and that is sin."
Well, that’s hard to chew on.